Nagpapasalamat ako sa Fireman natin dahil napostponed yung exam namin kanina sa Phys 82  na wala akong ka-alam-alam na exam na pala. Swerte.

Pucha! Muntik na sana o! Pambihirang buhay naman. Akala ko bukas pa yung exam namin sa Phys 82, wala talaga akong inaral kagabi. Kahit isang slide lang ng PowerPoint ni Sir Darwin, wala akong nabasa! Mas inuna ko kasi yung PSY1 kasi sigurado talaga yung exam namin dun. Sabi pa nga ni Ms. Ocampo na "despite the delays, we will push through our scheduled exam." Siyempre hindi na yun papayag na madelay pa yung exam namin kaya nagsipag-sipagan tuloy ako kagabi na nabalewala lang din nung nabasa ko na yung testpaper. Malas pa rin.

Walang madaling exam. Yung iba nadadalian, bobo lang talaga ako. Kasi dalawa yung exam ko kahapon: CMSC 22 at PHYS 82 Lab. Yung CMSC 22, nakapag-aral talaga ako dun. Adik sa programming eh. Swerte nung binigay na yung testpaper kasi nadalian ako. Pero yung PHYS 82 lab, two hours lang akong nagbasa ng reading materials na hindi ko pa maintindihan sa dami ng iniisip. Kaya minalas ako nun. Akalain mong higit kalahati di ko nasagutan.

Malas man ako o swerte, tuloy pa din yung exam namin sa PHYS 82 bukas kaya aral-aralan muna. Sana may Fire Drill ulit at ililibre ko talaga ng tanghalian yung Fireman.

Di
Bale Na

by wriuz

Jenny, kumusta ka na

Sampung taon din tayong di nagkita

Di ko naman inakala na

Ikaw ay matatagpuan

Anong meron ang pagkakataon

Bakit ngayon lang

Pinagtapo ng tadhana an gating

mga buhay

[Refrain]

Sa malayo nakatingin

Sa likod ng mga bituin

Nagtatanong

Kelan kita mararating

[Chorus]

Di bale nang wala ka sa aking tabi

Basta’t sa awit ko’y nandun ka palagi

Sana iyong marinig ang mga nais

Sabihin ng aking mga labi

Jenny, sa text lang ba

kita makakakwentuhan

O di kaya ay mangungutang

Upang ang boses mo’y mapakinggan

Anong meron ka at gusto kita

Makapiling palagi

Gustong-gusto kong napapangiti

Kita

[Refrain]

Sa malayo nakatingin

Sa likod ng mga bituin

Nagtatanong

Kelan kita mararating

[Chorus]

Di bale nang wala ka sa aking tabi

Basta’t sa awit ko’y nandun ka palagi

Sana iyong marinig ang mga nais

Sabihin ng aking mga labi

[Adlib]

[Bridge]

Di bale nang ikaw ay nasa malayo

Andito ka naman sa aking mga kwento

Hihintayin kong matapos

ang iyong pag-aaral

Ite-text nalang o tatawagan ka sa

Bawat araw

[Chorus]

Di bale nang wala ka sa aking tabi

Basta’t sa awit ko’y nandun ka palagi

Sana iyong marinig ang mga nais

Sabihin ng aking mga labi

This I dedicate to Jenny. She was my classmate and crush when I was in Grade 1. One word to describe her: AMAZING. See her in person to define what AMAZING means. =)

Relient K - Must Have Done Something Right
This is one of my favorite songs by Relient K.
This tells a story about friendship and love.
I also like the video.
I have a collection (about 68 songs)
of their songs from all albums.

[Verse 1]
We should get jerseys cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you’re outta my league
And I know that it’s so cliche to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust
It’s Jealously, they can see that we’ve got it going on

[Pre-chorus]
And I’m racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You’re OK with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we’ve ever seen

[Chorus]
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I must’ve done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must’ve done something right
I must’ve done something right

[Verse 2]
Maybe I’m just lucky cause it’s hard to believe
Believe that somebody like you’d end up with someone like me
And I know that it’s so cliche to talk about you this way
But I’ll push all my inhibitions aside
It’s so very obvious to everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

[Pre-chorus]
And I’m racking my brain for a new improved way
To let you know your more to me than what I know how to say
You’re OK with the way this is going to be
This is going to be the best thing we’ve ever seen

[Chorus x3]
If anyone can make me a better person you could
All I gotta say is I must’ve done something good
I came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must’ve done something right
I must’ve done something right

Trivia:

I am a solid fan of Relient K. They’re just unique. Unlike the popular artists, they promote the love of God. Unlike the adherents to EMO MUSIC, their songs are light to the heart and entertaining to the soul. Also, their lyrics are filled with wisdom which I find useful especially when I deal with personal problems. But then they keep their close connection with the current trends in music to match the hearing needs of the present generation. In general, they sound punk but they also play/create songs tuned in other popular genre. I hope you will find Relient K as one of your favorite bands. I gave them a ‘two thumbs up’ and 5 stars in my Yahoo! Launchcast player. I hope you too.

do i exist?

no. you haven’t caught sight of me. as if i wear an invisible cloak that i do not even know since when or i have become a dust particle that you brush from your hair. it is true that i hide myself, my true nature, so that no one will fall in love with me. not even you. apples are best eaten when  allowed to ripe. right now, this apple may not taste good. in fact, it just shed the petals it once had while it was still a flower.

i see you as a beautiful soul. each time the moonbeams gather in your face, they fell like morning dew in a red rose, cold and refreshing , compelling to the senses. you are beautiful and i could not care less. you are more to me but i am less to you… for now.

but don’t be so confident. nothing stays the same. flowers will eventually form fruits and fruits produce seeds that will grow to bear more flowers. nature shapes this all. the bud is less than the flower and the seed is less than the tree that bore it. but when allowed to grow, given a room for improvement, it will and it can be more than what it used to be. you should learn that less is more. just be patient as i am until the apple ripens and you shall see the beauty and savor the sweet taste.       

Beautiful Soul

by ♥ wriuz ♥

The mind is the ultimate source of beauty,
next is the heart;
Clear your mind from dirt,
and your face shall brighten.

Polish it with wisdom,
and you shall be great;
Not by gold or silver,
that in the flame melts.

You shall not fear love,
for love conquers all;
But be wary of illusions,
it is insight, not instinct,
that you need more. 

Thinking wears me out but it is what I need most. I need to think. As simple as that. I may not be good at thinking or that my thoughts are simple but I believe there’s beauty in it. Like artworks, thoughts are handicrafts and we can make business out of it. In fact, our world is run by minds that think. Thoughts can do unimaginable things just as God does. Unfortunately, most men are not native thinkers. One has to suffer in order to think. Pressures do help a lot to push our limitations or at least get our minds into work. But with great mind comes great deeds. It only needs practice and a lot of practice. Keep reading. Keep thinking.

I wish I had more time to read and learn. I wanted to learn to be the best I could. But like the airborne orchids, I need support to grow what little seed I bear. A tree may be enough but right now I am still looking for the right tree. I sought help from orchids in my lineage but they refuse to hold me up. They are afraid that I might dominate over them and take their resources; or are they equally afraid of losing their posts.

I wish I could grow a tough stem and become a tree myself. And as soon as I can stand still, I shall hold orchids and vines and others in my trunk. For this reason I will become the tallest tree that none in the forest can topple. My leaves would be greenest and my fruits be sweetest. Birds and beasts are free to feed on me because I will be teeming with food for them. And more vines and orchids will bloom in my branches.

I shall be the legacy of the forest. And my legacy would be my fruits. From them my seeds will scatter into faraway places. And they will grow much like their father.

My stem is getting tougher by day and by night. I am growing like this tree, however, at a slow pace. I may not become the tallest, but at least I had become the orchid that toughened itself and became a tree.

Enter the night with a burning torch,
Darkness is none to measure,
Upon whom lightbeams are focused,
Comes this new hope,
About which all depends.
Time is running fast but we all
In corruption lagged.
Out of darkness we shall go,
Not a drop of ink to bring.

For our future depends
In what the present brings.
Rent all the mustard trees.
Seed we plant and nurture today,
Tomorrow we shall reap.

This is amazing. I’m having multiple personalities. Well, I just thought one personality can’t handle too many a task so I decided to break down the jobs, assign to each personality, and hopefully allot each other time to grow. I took a test in my PSY 1 class which was aimed at determining which part of the brain I use more frequently and found out that neither was I left-brained (scientist) nor right-brained (artist) because I use both parts given a situation. Having my brain balanced is beneficial as it gives me more options when facing certain circumstances. However, as our teacher said, it might also lead to confusion and indecision. This I look forward to but for now, I just want to have a clear distinction of my different personalities.

INVISIBLE HAND (IHAND): I manage logical thoughts, career, issues, social concerns, and the like. This is the normal me.

WRIUZ: I manage emotions and turn it into artworks. This is the emotional me.

DEVIANT FUTURIST (DF): I manage unimaginable thoughts, ideas out-of-the-box, etc, that are of relevance to the future. I work for the advancement of human civilization. This is the ecstatic me.

January
- Got a nice girlfriend.
- Got my first special gift.

February
- First time to rush the waves of the seas.
- Problematic relationship.

March
- Broke up.
- Ouch.

April
- Her 18th birthday.
- Got a fine job.

May
- Employed in a whole new working environment.

June
- Fatal blow from her: she got a new one.

July
- Survived yet still recovering from pain.
- Entered Physika.

August
- Nothing good happened.

September
- Feelings slowly fading away.
- Love story ended.

October
- Took on a new seat.
- Bought several ancient philosophies.
- Promised no to girlfriends.
- Wrote lots of songs.

November
- Influenced by power.
- Financial problems arose.
- Crept in Avernus.
- Took on a new ride, thanks to the ferryman.

December
- Hurt by a girl from the past.
- Met and loved a cousin.
- Enjoyed the Christmas and New Year Celebrations with kids.
- A new life I have found. üü

The year 2007 could never have been more memorable if not because of the love story I had. Another glorious misfortune shaped my hand–the hand that put new thoughts in my mind. Worthwhile year, I have had a lot of experiences. Too many to blog.

2008 is another year to look forward to. I’m turning 20 this month and I want to be another Alexander. (wushuu!ü) I do hope I can prove something now despite the young age. I want to prove to myself that I can do things which my mind really can’t think of as a possibility. The left brain and the right brain are still function well anyway. But still, according to the mythology of the Norsemen, "the mind only knows what lies near the heart." There are a lot of secrets yet to be told. These secrets may weigh more than all the golds in the world. I just have to search my innermost soul and hopefully find it and use it in the proper way, much like the transformers, the radicals, the geniuses did.